Tropical Guin~*

I'm hate to be a pretender

2009-03-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

I hate to be a pretender
but I'm so into pretending recently
Cause I can't show my hatred to whom i hate
and I have to pretend to dislike whom I love

I hate to be a pretender
but I guess..
I can be a good pretender..

I thought

2008-08-11T01:25:00.000-07:00

I thought..

I thought I've let you go
But seems like you're still in my dream

I thought I've let myself free
But seems like I'm still stuck in my past

I thought I would be good without you
But seems like I would be better if I were with you

2008-06-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

自相矛盾了很久，
终于决定搬家了。

欢迎参观我的新家..

http://blog.pixnet.net/LeeShiYing

2008-06-12T10:08:00.000-07:00

摘自方阿镔的部落格

最近常常失眠
站在人生的交叉点
有点白头发快霸占整颗头的感觉
想不通啊
未来该怎么走

所以呢
半夜没事做又睡不着
在网上乱逛别人的部落格咯
最近最爱浏览的部落格就包括以上这位

方阿镔先生

看他的部落格会有一种莫名的感觉
很像有点佩服，又有点羡慕
是什么样的毅力让他这样坚持做音乐人的这个梦想
是什么样的感觉能够有这么一个让自己这么坚持的梦

我不懂

因为我好像没有。却又像没有。

2008-06-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

亲爱的小妹

今天的天空特别灰
屋子里的空气很不知所谓
这样的结局让人措手不及的狼狈

亲爱的小妹
老妈给了你名字叫思慰
所以你说你总懂得自我安慰
从来就没有看过你流眼泪
可想是多大挫折让你如此伤悲

亲爱的小妹
从来你对你的未来都很无所谓
一直觉得是不是属于你的天赋上天忘了给
从来就那么自卑
要知道信心只有自己能给

亲爱的小妹
老妈看你流泪也跟着流泪
这样的无助我们该如何为你背
未来的路不是你想像的那么黑
也许偶尔还是会流眼泪
但却依然相信这坎坷的路后会是柳暗花明的美

2008-06-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

小虹店里买的巧克力笔记本

今天出去办点事，

顺便去了趟小虹男友刚开的店。

整个店装潢得很不错。

有 feel~

山穷水尽的我买了这个看似巧克力，

闻似巧克力，

却不是真的巧克力的笔记本回家。

还不错可爱吧~

我想，

在不久的以后，

我也会为我想开的店努力的~

2008-06-08T00:52:00.000-07:00

梦想

2008-03-15T02:26:00.000-07:00

前程茫茫
找不到方向
我的那一道曙光
到底在哪一道墙的后方

很想流浪
现实和梦想
却只能站在原地妄想
我的梦想终究也只能是个梦想

2008-01-28T04:59:00.000-08:00

与阿妈和小妹到谷中城疯狂购物的圣诞前夕。

二零零八的第一天。

4-D mOtiOn mAsteR at Genting.

Arena of Stars at Genting. [家娱频道台庆]

2008-01-12T18:06:00.000-08:00

最近在看的书.. [妈，亲一下] - 九把刀

2007-12-07T20:41:00.000-08:00

麻坡河口的夕阳－［摄影师－小企］

麻坡一个小公园里等待出租的迷你重型机车。
我们那年代的小朋友都没有机会骑这个。
［摄影师－小企］

孔雀森林－蔡智恒

表姐的第一个小孩。可爱。

回到原来

2007-11-23T18:26:00.000-08:00

回到原来..
Lucas 说：很像回到白衣蓝裙时期的学生头..
小妹说：很低调的发型..
我却只想剪掉坏了的头发.. 前掉坏心情..

说

2007-11-20T04:26:00.000-08:00

我对雨点说：
喜欢在雨中漫步
重新让自己习惯孤独
在雨中我没有哭

雨说：
......

我对黑夜说：
喜欢和黑夜独处
享受一个人走的那段路
在夜里我没有哭

黑夜说：
......

我想对你说：
若我对你的思念是源自于雨天
但愿我对你的思念会淡忘于雨天

小Mate 说:
如果你对他的思念是来自于昨天的思念
愿你对他的淡忘来自于今天的雨天

2007-11-19T09:01:00.000-08:00

康复中的第五天

心情很 blue.. 我很想哭..

雨天

2007-11-15T16:13:00.000-08:00

"喜欢在雨中漫步
回想起你为我撑伞的那一段路
喜欢这样被你呵护
就算是在雨中也很幸福.."

然而.. 这幸福没有持续很久。
因为雨后会天晴..
在太阳底下.. 我依然在演奏着孤单进行曲..

外面下着雨.. 而我，却顶着大太阳在被窝里哭泣..

2007-11-15T02:31:00.001-08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

浮木

2007-11-14T19:29:00.000-08:00

若我是一根浮木
请你紧紧把我抓住
虽然我不是你的幸福
却希望你能幸福

若你是一根浮木
我该如何化解这错误
虽然你不是我的幸福
却仍然相信幸福就在不远处

两根紧紧相依的浮木
虽然不孤独
却只不过是一张美丽的错误

2007-11-13T19:15:00.000-08:00

一个人ok.. 寂寞很ok.. 习惯就ok..

离开地球表面

2007-09-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

离开地球表面
双脚跨越地平线
之间的距离有多远
我看不见

离开地球表面
想要触碰那片天
这梦想该如何实现
梦太遥远

望着那海岸线
感觉土壤松陷
我离开不了地球表面
反而往下陷

2006-10-13T18:44:00.000-07:00

Back to the season where tension filled the air. Spent 43200 seconds a day in the library. Reading notes and books that are full with 26 alphabetes in repeatation and different sequences. Life is bored. Time is not enough.

Miss home so much. Home misses me too i bet.

2006-09-18T03:57:00.000-07:00

Digging deep down inside my heart
Going six feet under
With no cure and i surrendered
to the feelings i have
With no choice and i cried
for the feelings i have...

2006-09-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

Event : 'Lim teh' (translated into English=drink tea)
Time : 10:30 p.m
Date : 13/09/2006
People involved: Dai Lou, Yi Lou, Snow fish, Elin and I
Mood : HAPPY

2006-09-08T15:18:00.000-07:00

Went for shopping ALONE today. Bought myself a laptop bag. *Happy*

Home

2006-09-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

Finally.. I'm home. I'm so home until i slept for 2 days at a row and finished watching a newly released Taiwanese drama series in one day. Hahaha~! Call me number 1~!
Thought of writing something about the camp but QH said that it's kinda bored reading the same piece of story at everyone's blog. Thus, i decided to skip the whole part of the story and go straight to the end of the story. "And then they go home happily with nothing but sweet memories.." Hehehe..
This piece of bullshit is just to fill in some of the space since i haven't been updating my blog for quite a long time.
As the conclusion of my post of today, I'm enjoying my holiday prefectly well at home..

2006-08-31T17:36:00.000-07:00

Busy preparing for [Chuan Cheng Ying] held on this coming Saturday. Hopefully everything will turn out well. Together we make it a success.

2006-08-08T09:00:00.000-07:00

Talked and studied together with both roommates til 2 o'clock in the morning. Still stuck half way studying Thermal Physic. I just simply hate those equations larr.. Oh Lord~! Thank God that there won't be anymore physic next sem. Three semesters at a row are already causing me serious headache.
Going back to Melaka this coming Saturday to bring some of the committee members of '3hua' there for some [Chuan Cheng Ying] business and thanks to Sotong that he offered me to be my guide. *Blink* I owe him once.
Last of all, wish me luck in my 1st test. I really don't have that kind of confidence that i used to have last sem anymore this sem. Luck is really what i need. SoOo.. good luck to all of those that will be sitting for their tests soon. So sad that PC fair is held so near me but no time to go. *Sob*

2006-08-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

Haven't been sleeping well yesterday cause BW (former senior roommate) came to my room and told some really horror ghost stories during this time of the year while most of the chinese floormates were gathering in my room waiting to celebrate Shian's (BW's junior roommate).
At first i thought the story-telling session ended up quite well with b'day songs and cake, but as the consequences of the story-telling part, two of the juniors from the other room came to have an over-night stay in my room. Haha.. Although i couldn't really sleep well with 2 people in one single bed, it was still quite a interesting night i should say.
I'm really glad that juniors of my floor are all very friendly and socialble LIKE ME!! Haha.. It feels great having the chance to get to know them and spend some time 'kepoh-ing' with them. The emptiness in me is being filled with the laughters that we shared. This sem really turned out to be a lot better than i thought i'd be. Good start for this sem and i hope that it'll end well too.

2006-08-02T12:50:00.000-07:00

1st of all happy belated b'day to PY and happy b'day to RY. I'm not trying to give any excuse but nowadays i really don't remember birth dates as well as i used too d. Time flies and i'm feeling tired trying to catch up with it.
Although there's more hard times than good times in this brand new sem, yet there's still good news that break the heavy dark cloud sometimes. I received a happy news from dai lou y'day and i was so happy for him that he finally got the reply from IMU that he's getting the scholarship to study medic. Congratulations to dai lou and hope that he eventually have the chance fulfill his dream in becoming a doctor. *Blink*
Hmm.. I have my dream to chase after too. First step of getting nearer to dream is to start studying for the coming tests. Stressful time of the sem. Hate it. Anyhow, I think i'll try my very best not to do too lousily in my 1st test larr... Or else... i think i might start wanting to 'pak tuo' again. Hehe...

Busy

2006-07-30T17:10:00.000-07:00

Hectic days since new semester started on PS's b'day. First, i was busy with floor orientation and it felt like i was the one who's newly entered the U. I wasn't even so involved in the orientaiton activities back when i was the brand new freshy one year ago.
Then, i was busy with the task that PS gave me and i was hoping that i could help him share some of his work load so i did accept it. It was our college's Unit Mahasiswa Cina's telematch that i was in-charging. Despite all the obstacles that came my way that i eventually overcome it with all the others help, the telematch was really a great experience for me to learn about leadership.
After busy dealing with all the activities happening around me, finally it's time for me to put some effort on my studies. Reports and assignments are like 3 meals per day this semester. I'm now having this reports and assignments phobia that might cause me to insanity anytime soon. Hmm.. i guess i have really no more 1st class hope for this semester cause i haven't even have a touch on any piece of my notes yet and 1st tests are already so around the corner. Gosh~! Can somebody save me from all of these please...
However, even though i'm super busy and all that but I'm still very happy with it so far. At least i found back the old happy me that i wanted to be the last whole semester. Although there's still time where i will think about his stuff, i'm still fine dealing with the sad part of me because i want myself to be happy and once he said that he wants me to be happy too... I'm so glad that i'm happy now... for me and everyone around me.

2006-06-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

At last I did others something good instead of shaking legs at home. Got to know that juniors coming into our college will be those that are taking Chinese language and mass communication. Kind of disappointed cause I was hoping that juniors of our same course will be living under one roof with the seniors. Not that i dislike knowing people from other courses but being in the same college with direct junior is really something i wished for since entering U. I really like the feeling knowing that i'm so close to my junior. Just like me and my senior.
Hmm... however, I'm still looking forward to be back to U again. Can't wait to meet some new faces in U and college. Of course i do really miss the gang in U as well but most of all... I'm looking forward to be a part of my super seniors convo. I really miss talking to big head Soon lerr... Hope that he's doing great.
After attending the meeting, Snow Fish and I met up with CH, Sotong and Chu at MP. Hanged out at Starbucks and talked rubbish as usual. Haha... It's the way we communicate with each other larr... We do update each other with rubbish and learn things thru rubbish that we talked. *Blink*
Went for lut-lut as dinner again. Gosh~! No more lut-lut for me for this coming few weeks please. PheWw~! After that, we went to Jonker AGAIN~! But i simply can't get enough of Jonker. Love this place so much...
All in all... it's another tiring day~! And... I lost the badge that he gave it to me last sem. *Sob*

2006-06-22T13:34:00.000-07:00

It was Kok Ching's 21st b'day and Elin's friends from Penang and Pahang came to Malacca on that day as well. The b'day was a success i should say but I'm sure Kok Ching's parents would have heacheaches after we went home cause we kinda mess up her house 'a little bit'. Paiseh neh~! Sorry uncle aunty...
That day, i stayed over at Elin's house to accompany her. Elin and i went to bed around 3 a.m and fell asleep around 4 a.m. The guys were enjoying themselves watching World Cup til 5 o'clock in the morning. PhEwW~! Staying up just to watch soccer match is not my cup of tea all this while since i have to take good care of my 'book cover' badly. Hehe...
Woke up for the 1st time around 7 o'clock in the morning cause i couldn't really sleep well at Elin's house. Might because of the twin sharing bed since i'm so used to sleep alone back at home. Forced myself back to sleep again and then woke up around 11 a.m to get ready for the routine of the day.
Elin's mom took us for breakfast somewhere near Elin's house. Guess what were we having as breakfast? BINGO~! It's the very famous dish in Malacca - Chicken rice ball. I could feel that my effort in dieting few days ago went down the drain for having such a heavy meal as breakfast. *Sob*
After breakfast, we went into MMU to have a look around in the car. It has been along time since the last time i went into MMU. Hmm... too bad that we didn't bump into any cute guy cause only some little kido could be seen. *Sigh*
After that, we dropped the others back home and then we (Elin's mom, Elin and I) headed to Melaka Sentral to pick a couple from KL up. Went back home again and let the couple had their lunch while waiting for Dai Lou and Rui Yee to come bring us around.
If you ever ask me whether there's any interesting place in Malacca? I'll say:" Yes, of course. BUT you can visit all the places in one day." So, anyone ever plan to visit Malacca... a 2 days and 1 night trip will be just nice. Hehe..
First, we went to the Red House area and went up the St. Paul hill. Then, we went to the Baba house to had some Cendol, Mee Siam and Mee Rebus. Made me think of the days when we're back in school and we went to have our lunch there after school. Haiz... those were the days...
Then, we proceed on to MP after had a walk at Jonker. Watched [ The fast the furious - Tokyo Drift ]. The movie was COOL~! And the actor reminded me of 'you-know-who'... Hehe... Not too much emotion of me thinking of him though.
After the movie, it's time for dinner. Went for lut-lut and i ate quite alot lerr... And again my diet plan went down the drain. *Sigh*
Went home around 11 p.m. It was a tiring day. Really tired.

2006-06-18T13:04:00.000-07:00

HaPpY FaThEr'S DaY yO...

2006-06-17T20:35:00.000-07:00

It's Elin's b'day today.. happy b'day yo..

Tioman

2006-06-13T23:40:00.000-07:00

Since CH kept complaining that she couldn't understand my blog in Chinese, I decided to write my blog in Chinese at Friendster and write another English version here. *Blink*

04/06/06
It has been such a long time since the last time I been there. A place where I was born. I don't really have any vivid memories about my early childhood there cause I was just a tiny little [Penguin] back then.
The park that my dad used to bring me to still looked the same. It seemed like it was just yesterday that I was brought to this world but I knew it very well that I'm no longer the little girl back then anymore. I'll be soon turning 21 years old but everything still seems so yesterday..
I just simply love living in memories. Sweet memories give me courage to move on. Bitter ones give me lessons to grow strong..
Along the journey.. I set my MP3 on [repeat] mode.. Song playing was Michael Buble's [Home]..

05/06/06
Monday.
Headed straight to one of my mom's best friend's house after breakfast. Thanks to her effort in 'repairing' my face but too bad that there isn’t much difference though. *Sob*

06/06/06
Rainy day. Started raining cats and dogs since I woke up early in the morning. My plan of 'polluting' the pool was spoilt. I was as moody as the weather today.
Sixth month from that day and yet I couldn't feel less about what I felt six months before. Felt so pathetic about myself. Once someone told me that I'm only good in all kind of sayings but when I come to face it myself, I'm just a stupid little coward.
Oh my Buddha~! Oh my Buddha~!
Lying in the bed and gazing into the darkness.. Once again, I felt the emptiness in me. Playing on my MP3 was Fish Leong's [Accept]..

07/06/06
Destination of the day - Rompin.
"...Goodbye my lover/ Goodbye my friend/ You have been the one/ You have been the one for me/ I am a dreamer but when I wake, you can't break my spirit/ it's my dreams you take..."... Heard this song in dad's car. It's one of my graduated senior’s fave song. It's a song by James Blunt.
"...Goodbye my lover/ Goodbye my friend/ You have been the one/ You have been the one for me/ I'm so hollow, baby/ I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow..."

Before reaching Rompin, dad brought us to see the very famous Istana Abu Bakar situated in Pekan. There was a polo field next to the palace. My dad started telling stories about Sultan Abu Bakar as if he was one of the King's best friend back in those days. Hehe..
Dad drove into a fish village named Nenasi before heading on to our destination. It wasn't really those traditional kind of fish village that I used to imagine. However, I do felt that it would be quite interesting living in such places though. Simple life.
Then, we arrived at Summerset Resort to check in and to leave our luggage in the hotel. After that, we continued our explore journey to Lanjut Golden Beach Resort. This resort was very much better compared to the one we're staying. Too bad that we've already checked in. Walked by the beachside at Lanjut Golden Beach Resort with my sis and took some photos. Hmm.. simply couldn't get enough of taking photos. *Blink*
Then, we proceed on to find the jetty to Tioman. The progress of searching was kind of exciting because it made me think of Amazing Race. Haha.. Looking out for sign boards and asking help from local people were FUN~! And with all of our effort and Buddha's help, at last we FOUND the jetty~!
It was around 4 p.m when we get to know the jetty's where about. Our stomaches started grumbling because we forgot to feed them since the last meal in the morning. Poor stomach. Without any future ado, we started hunting for food.
As I've mentioned above, it was only around 4 p.m at that time. Thus, there weren't really any restaurant available for dinner that early. Hence, we just got to eat some fried noodles to temporary calm down the riot that was about to held in our stomach.
Headed back to the Summerset Resort and the whole family went for cycling. It was suppose to be RM8 per bicycle for half an hour but the person in-charged let us to take 4 bicycles having only to pay RM16. It was a 50% discount neh~! However, the condition of the bicycles weren't well maintained. My sis and I had backside-ache by the time we finished cycling. Ouch~!
After such an aggressive exercise, our stomach started complaining again. Therefore, dad brought us for dinner AGAIN at Pantai Hiburan. This time we had some real seafood dishes and it was finger-licking-good de neh~!
Lastly, our stomaches were all satisfied and we happily headed back to our room.
What a great day~!

08/06/06
Took the 9 o'clock ferry to Tioman in the morning. Reached our destination after 2 hours.
I couldn't help to fall so much in love with islands. Deep sea.. blue sky.. nice blowing wind.. Love it~!
Went for snorkeling with dad and sis but couldn't have really clear view of the under water world. Dad said that it might because of the wind and current. Anyhow, sis kind of enjoy her first time snorkeling very much. *Blink*
At night, the whole family had a walk by the beach. I was sitting alone at the beach side and drawning in my very own thought. Argh..

09/06/06
Before leaving the island, I drew myself a piece of memory of that island. I'll be back again if there's any chances to do so..

2006-06-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

今天... 又有人提起他了...
请不要问我他的近况... 因为我不知道。
请不要问我他还好吗? 因为... 我真的不知道。
请不要在我身上找伤口洒盐... 因为，我好像发现自己应该没有任何伤口可言...
自己造成的伤害，应该自己负责。

2006-06-02T05:25:00.000-07:00

Yo~! 我回来了... 从繁忙的城市回来了。回家途中还经过了我美美的大学... 这大学装满这我整整一年的回忆。好期待下学期的开始捏! 虽然会不一样，可是还是耐心的期待着...
这几天都呆在爸爸的宿舍里无所事事... 昨天，就三母女一起搭 LRT 到 KLCC 参观书展。原本还想到戏院里看 [X-Men 3] 的... 结果，由于是学校假期的关系， KLCC 可不是普通的多人捏! 人年纪大了，就不太适合去人多的地方和别人挤了... 加上我们逛完书展的时候，我的手脚都快不属于我的了，都是回家算了啦!
这趟繁忙都市之旅，我给自己买了一个 optical mouse 和一件毛衣。我真的是十分无法形容彻底的破产了。嘻嘻! 不过，酱子到处买纪念品的感觉倒是不错的捏...
接下来的星期天，我又要趴趴走了... 爸爸带我们去 Pulau Tioman。希望不要晒得太黑就好...
六月的心情与天气笼罩着浓浓的阳光...

2006-05-29T23:47:00.000-07:00

倒数五月的最后第二天... 心情沉重得让人疲惫...
无法形容的害怕...
五月的我，真的过得没有遗憾吗？

2006-05-29T23:30:00.000-07:00

刚从狮城回来... 累。我深深感觉到我的双脚已经是不属于我的了。这么疯狂式的购物，大概已经很久没试过了吧! 可是，在这胜利的背后，我的 purse 却默默的哭泣着。就像我所说的，这趟狮城之旅回来，我将会正式宣布破产。
我买了一个我非常喜欢的手表和大包包。好有成就感哦! *高兴* 而且，除了大购物，我们还见了佩仪，Lynette 和 Abang。好可惜没机会和 CY 见到面。时间太紧凑了，只好下次在见咯!
回来之前，我们顺便还到了NTU 见识见识新加坡的大学。天啊! 感觉差好多哦! 别人的大学竟然有 Japanese food 捏! *Jealous*
写着写着... 我的眼皮已经支撑不下去了。明天再续。
晚安...

2006-05-25T01:45:00.000-07:00

I was just about to strike my 5th hour of brain-rest and then there came his sms. Gosh~! I really felt like wanna throw my E398 into the dustbin at that very moment. I could only barely fell asleep at 5 o'clock in the morning the night before.. How could he do that to me?!
Went out to helped him out but i didn't really contribute much cause he didn't really know what to do also. So.. we went to TESCO and walked around. Bumped into some of his friends there and they're looking at me like 'eh hem'.. All in all, the moral behind the story is.. don't go out with male friend just being 2 of you especially those who have already got themselves occupied. *Headache*
Home around 3 p.m. He was entertained by my mom. Wonder why my mom likes him so much larr.. Muahaha.. My sis actually thinks that he's better looking now.
One thing i found out today. He's still wearing the watch that i gave him. I'm not thinking too much about it but it makes me think of the other watch that i gave out. There's so much memories in each of it. I'm sure both watches found their very correct owners. I'm sure they were the right guy to fall for but just fell at the wrong time.. At least there're memories to keep..
SoOo.. until i the time decided to fall again.. I'm happy as I'm single now.. *Blink*

It's just another sleepless night...

2006-05-22T21:01:00.000-07:00

今天早上停电了，害我热得满身大汗的起床，真是气死我了! 还好 notebook 有充电，所以我今早唯一的消遣就是上网了… ( 特别要感谢科技的发达和聪明的自己，让我在一个停电的早上有那么一点点的娱乐…) 虽然，有小虹陪我 MSN 聊天分散停电的注意力，可是马六甲的天气可不是普通的热捏~! 更况且我 ‘汗宝宝’ 的名誉可不是盖的捏，唯一可以形容我当时情况的，就只有‘汗流浃背’四各字了… 一边流汗，一边打字的感受真的好狼狈哦~!
不过，也还好因为停电，所以才会这么早上网… 也才因而会和好久没聊的老朋友们在网上碰到聊天… 这个 weekend 就会到新加坡去咯~! 到时候就可以疯狂购物一番，然后，回来后正式宣布破产… 嘻嘻~! 希望计划不会泡汤啦… 因为一天还没去到都还没算是定数嘛~! 本来不大赞成我去的妈妈昨天还突然兴奋了起来，吩咐我买这个买那个… Ah dhui… 头痛~!
Hmm… 刚刚在 MSN 遇到盈佳，也顺便和她聊了聊… 我这次真的惨透了啦~! 就知道她误会我喜欢 PS 了… 天啊 ~! 我这次跳下马六甲海峡也洗不清了啦~! 我真的不明白我到底做了些什么，会让大家酱子误会法… 真的很扯叻~! 说真的，虽然我平时很爱作弄盈佳，可是我真的不希望她误会我。毕竟，酱子的感觉很不好受。每一次看到她，我都很想安慰她哦! 她真的是一个很好的女孩，她只是喜欢上了一个不喜欢她的人而已… 错不在她。我真的很能了解她的感受… 我想人都是一样的吧! 摆在眼前的已经成了一种习惯，总觉得一切理所当然… 大家都希望可以看远一些，觉得可以找到更好的，却没发现原来自己要找的，一直都在身边… 很无奈的是，我不能帮上些什么… 毕竟，这是两个人之间的事。希望她会找到她要的幸福啦~!
所以嘛，我想我真的看开了啦~! 就像佩仪所说的 single RoCkS yo~! 虽然，寂静的夜里会孤单寂寞… 虽然，浪漫的节日会一个人过… 虽然，stress 的时候会有想要谈恋爱的冲动… 虽然，有时候还是会羡慕别人的天长地久… 我想，还是认命了吧~! 我们这种天生就额头贴着 [孤独老人] 的标贴的人，有没有幸福的未来，都是靠自己来得比较实际一些… 嘻嘻~! 幸福这东西嘛… 真的是让人欢喜，让人忧… 让人欢笑，让泪流… *Sigh*
最近周先生忙着处理私事，真的没什么时间来和我下棋捏… 棋盘空了好久，只好凭空想像咯… 失眠失得这么潇洒的，恐怕就只有我了啦~! 在酱下去，我真的会因为睡眠不足而死掉捏… 不过，值得一提的是，我把我 E398 的 screen saver 换掉了… 在失眠的夜里，我踏出了我人生的一大步… 虽然，这一步对别人来说没什么，可是对我来说，却是我重拾我理智的一大步。“之所以会那么卑微，就因为我们把心寄托在别人身上… 之所以会那么脆弱，就因为我们给了他们那个伤害我们的权力… ”－Elin. 我就是在深深领悟这句话后，才踏出那一步的…
所以… 从此一再提醒自己，在爱别人之前，请爱自己多一点… 这不是自私，是自我保护。不是现实，是理智。既然不能让周遭配合我们，就只能调适自己来适应环境… 当然，在适应的当儿，请不要迷失自己… 虽然，过程会很累，心情会很灰… 可是，我相信重拾自己后的心情，会胜过于一切一切… 我在我的 visual diary 里写下一句，[ I’m just a friend.. Not more than that.. It’s time to wake up..] …
这天过后开始觉得，失眠背后的用意是为了让自己清醒。虽然也有可能是因为想太多而失眠，不过，至少这几天以来的失眠总算有点意义啦~! [蓝色大门] 又被我温习多一遍了… [Angles and Demons] 还在我努力当中… Yellowcard 的歌曲 update 完毕 ( 特别喜欢 [Hollywood Died] 这首歌…)… 而减肥计划则是彻底失败中… 嘻嘻~! 其实，真的真的好想瘦下来哦~! 看到大家都在改变，怎么自己却还是一样啊? 懊恼捏~! … Haih… 突然好想唱 [金包银] 叻… *Blink*

Da Vinci Code

2006-05-19T20:30:00.000-07:00

Went to watch DaVinci Code with CH and Sotong this afternoon. The movie was ok but less interesting compared to the book. Poor CH that had to keep explaining to the Sotong Kia. Muahaha.. My eyes weren't really feeling well while watching the movie and because of that i couldn't really concentrate. It's a movie worth watching though. *Blink*
Continued watching [Prisan Break] at CH's house. Nice nice series although I was half asleep while watching it. Hehe.. Paiseh larr.. Told cha that my eyes weren't feeling well lo.. might due to the sleepness nights that've been haunting me recently. However, it's undeniable that my Micheal Scofield's macho-ness is extremely breath-taking man~! Please do catch it on 8TV on every Monday 10:30 p.m.
Oh yeah~! I brought back some novels from CH's house as my bed time story. One of the books is [Angels and Demons] by non-other than bestselling author of the DaVinci Code -- Dan Brown. The other one is Chu's [Blue Gate Crossing]. Although i read [Blue Gate Crossing] few times before, I really don't mind reading it all over again. Hehe..
That's all for today.. Forgot to mention that I'm in a very good mood today.. A bit sleepy though.. =P

Peterpan Syndrome

2006-05-18T14:01:00.000-07:00

好不容易等到佩仪从狮城回来了，小虹从丁 Terengganu 回来了，阿猪和火星人从 UTAR 回来了，UPM 的我和雪鱼回来了… 真的真的好不容易，大家又聚在一起了…
虽然，每一次的聚餐都没有齐人，可是至少该碰面的都碰到面了，该三八的也三八得没完没了了… 嘻嘻! 最重要的是大家高兴就好啦! 这次的聚会算是至从新年那一次吃火锅后第一次再聚在一起吧! 虽然有着聊不完的话题，却发现话题都绕着圈子在转… 相同的烦恼，相同的感受，相同的心情，一切相同得让人害怕… 让人害怕的是发现原来我们都已经逐渐踏入人生的另一个阶段，一个我们不熟悉却只能继续走下去的人生阶段… 就算有着多么多的不适应或是遇到多么多的挫折，我们都只能走下去，因为无可否认的，我们都长大了… 天啊! 一直在想，其他人到底是怎么走过去的呢?
二十一岁后的天空，那么的让人胆怯却又那么的让人期待… 那种心情，就像是小时候刚开始学骑脚踏车的时候，总是希望爸爸可以放开手，让自己靠自己的能力与技术在空地上奔驰… 可是，在那同时，却害怕在爸爸松开手后，自己会因为失去平衡而摔跤… 好矛盾的我，好矛盾的心情… 爸爸说过：“我们可以给你的，是最最好的学问与生存的技巧… 接下来的路要怎么走，就靠你们自己了…”… 二十一岁后的天空，有着我们向往的自由，却也有着所有大人所面对的负担… 未来的路就要靠自己的力量去闯了… 大家就一起加油咯!
最近，我似乎每晚都有严重的失眠… 躺在床上，脑海里重复浮现一样的疑问，非一般思考后就能得到答案的疑问… 也不是旁人分析就可以为我揭开的谜底… 这样的失眠状况似乎慢慢地成为的一种习惯，习惯在睡前躺在床上发呆，想一想自己的幼稚，想一想自己的未来，想一想火星人所发表的[伟大计划]… 未来… 套一句老话说：[ I see no future and I don’t know whether my future sees me or not…]
[ Peter Pan syndrome ] 再一次的漫延… 潜伏在心里已久的它，又开始发作了… 虽然明知道挣扎后是改变不了什么的，却仍然希望可以为自己做些什么，让下一秒的自己活得没有遗憾… 我真的是好一个 Peter Pan 迷哦! 真的有些懊恼捏! 到底什么时候才要长大捏? 再酱下去真的不能了啦! Ah dhui… 懊恼-ing… *Sigh*
不过，还好这一路走来有姐妹们的陪伴… 也很感激一路上扶了我一把的恩人们 such as 阿顺和一直都很疼我的大佬＋兄弟们… 还有非常疼爱我的爸爸妈妈… 爱你们哟～! 嘻嘻…
对了! 说到大佬，大佬终于决定要穿上医生袍当医生了! 我相信大佬将来会是一位很好很好的医生… 看到大佬可以实现自己的梦想，我真的替他非常高兴… 医生曾几何时也在我小时候的志愿表上出现过，可是现在对我来说却是一件很遥远的事了… 大佬，要加油哦! I know you can do it~!

2006-05-14T22:37:00.000-07:00

HaPpY MoTheR's DaY yOo~! I LoVe yOu MoM... Hehe...

Ji Mui's gathering

2006-05-13T12:51:00.000-07:00

It hurts to see you cry
But it hurts even more to see you struggle
We hope to see you happy
But what can we do to make you happy?
This is the time we feel that the power of sisters is so tiny
This is the time we can only stand by your side and be supportive
So.. Be strong my girl..
We know you can go thru it
Once you go thru it
It'll be a part of your life's history and history it'll be..

有人说，凄美的爱情是最为浪漫的.. 我终于明白，那只是为了掩饰凄美背后的种种心酸..
至于坎坷路后真的会有幸福吗？
我一直坚信会有的，只要走下去，就会看到坎坷路尽头后的幸福..
相信幸福就在不远处..

2006-05-09T20:49:00.000-07:00

To another friend...

如果一开始就是个错误
为何要遍体鲮伤才能觉悟
如果一开始就知道会输
为何要头破血流才肯认输

我无能为力的看着你哭
我歇斯底里的陪着你哭
释放所有的委屈和愤怒
释放捆绑着自己的束缚

从失败挫折中才能领悟
感情中没有对错或赢输
不要害怕失恋后的孤独
*因为坎坷路后是你的幸福

The sentence noted with a * was taken from a message that he sent me before. He might not remember but I totally agree that 坎坷路后会是幸福...

I haven't been posting for the past few days cause I have too much to write yet found no point to start. Talked to a friend on the phone for almost 4 hours til 5 o' clock in the morning. She made me think of something that I didn't really put in consideration before. It's a topic that worth considering about it.. And I'm considering about it..

Talked to another friend on the phone just now. (I've been talking on phone quite often recently..) I was expecting some sad story from her but it turned out to be a quite entertaining one. Hehehe.. Glad that she's now quite okay now. Sometimes I'm really envy of her that she can actually talk about it so openly and solve it like an adult. How I wish I could..? *Sigh*

Read KM blog yesterday and I was like huiYoooOo~! I guess little KM is really growing up. *Blink* Life couldn't be any better as long as we're doing what we like.. I might be old fashion and all that but please do count me in if you all go for clubbing ya~! Although my parents are going to kill me for that.. Hehehe..

9th of May.. The month of May doesn't really turn out to be what I've been hoping.. Tomorrow will be a better day.. I truly believe in that.

2006-05-07T01:37:00.000-07:00

I watched [Kiss] AGAIN.. This would be be the 5th time. Every tiny little scence in this drama series makes me think of him.. It hurts but it helps to keep me awake..

5th of May

2006-05-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

Went to have our long-time 'mengidam' lut-lut with the same old gang but with extra one new member.. Yes.. Adam kia it is. Hope that we didn't really scare him and cause him any night mares after this. Hehe..
Looking back to when CH first found her miracle, it was like two years ago. And now is Chu's turn that she found her Adam. It's happy to see new members joining our gang one by one and I hope members that are joining us can feel the happiness in us too.. It might make me sound old and aunty.. but.. welcome to our world I must say.. A place where we share our laughter and tears.. A place where no one could really understand unless you come in and feel it yourselves..
5th day of May.. A day to remember.. A day of Mayday.. Hehe.. *Blink*

2006-05-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

I'm so So addicted to [ The Bleach ]. Thanks to CH and now I'm so stuck with it. *Blink*

2006-05-03T00:01:00.000-07:00

五月的第二天... 还没找到工作的我，在家里做了一半天的帮佣... 用自己的力量，把本来乱七八糟的家弄得比较能看些，真的真的非常的有成就感... 可是，大概是太久没用这么“马拉松式” 的收拾法了，感觉好累哦! 我想，应该有燃烧到不少脂肪吧! 嘻嘻! 失败已久的瘦身计划又再次被我和 CH 搬出来重新努力改进与加以实践，希望这一次会成功啦! 虽然好像每一次都这么说了还是失败，可是至少有试过咯... *Blink*
才放假了两天，我就快闷慌了... 接下来的两个月不知道该怎么过... CH 建议我换 blog skin, 可是... 我好懒哦! 因为一旦开始了，就真的没完没了... 老妈又要开始粹粹念了... 所以啊，想了想，要是真的无所事事，就重拾我的画笔好了... 把埋藏起来八百年了的艺术细胞再次挖出来，应该不会太难吧! 就请大家拭目以待吧! 嘻嘻!

2006-05-02T02:49:00.000-07:00

自从爱上了五月天，就特别期待五月的到来... 一踏入这一个月，整个人就好像充满新的期待... 期待摆脱他的影子后的日子，是否可以活得轻松自在一些... PS 对我说，要我好好的过这个假期... 我说，我会的... 我真的会的...
上述所说的，是我所期待的... 直到接二连三的倒霉降临... 首先，五月的第一天，我就这样用睡的，睡掉了一整个下午... ( 因为，我很累。不要问我为什么这么累，因为生存着本来就是一件累人的事... ) 然后，在用浑身的不爽，到全马来西亚最最失败的巴士总站和外劳们挤巴士... 非常累。不明白为何一个巴士站也可以设计得那么失败，真的真的无法了解他们的明白，到底是谁的点子，设计出这么让人 ' 震撼 ' 的作品... 又是谁让这么一个烂设计，盖成了今天的烂车站... 头痛。
总觉得，车站都应该会是像小说或电影里的那样，弥漫这一种让人感伤的浪漫... 可是在这里，我只感受到让人讨厌的污浊空气和让人不安的扒手... 在这车站，我只感受到在这大城市里，让人心酸的现实的丑陋与繁华背后的孤单... 然而，我们就这样被迫生活在这城市里，而这车站，就是把我们通往家的那一个途径...
在这五月的第一天，我终于回到家了... 回家的感觉真的只能用爽来形容。那么爽得让人快乐，爽得让人安定，更是爽得让人无忧无虑... 哈哈哈... 回家的感觉真好。离开他的感觉... 虽然会有思念，却更有重生的力量... 一直告诉自己，这个假期绝对是个好的开始... 绝对会是...
回到家第一件是就是用最短的时间换好衣服，再用最快的速度躺在风水位上看了一部戏... [ 小孩不笨 2 ]... 只能说这部戏不是普通的赞，是 '死马' 赞捏! 这是一部把感动与现实，泪水于笑声集聚在一起的电影。在娱乐之余，不知不觉中学到了些什么... 又领悟到了些什么... 赞! 用这么一级棒的电影来作为我五月的第一天的句号，应该还算不错的开始吧! 虽然，之前过了的整大半天真的是糟透了... 至少，画下的句点是完美的... 相信明天会更好...

2006-04-27T22:15:00.000-07:00

在我一口气把 [ 爱情魔戒 ] 在一个晚上看完后... 我的病，又复发了... 好想写些什么来纪念些什么，却不知道要写些什么...

21st b'day

2006-04-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

Erm.. I have something to confess. I actually forgot to wish CH for her to turn 21st yesterday until Sotong called to remind me. GoSh~! Useless phone reminder~! I have a very good excuse though. I was going to sit for my not-so-good-in subject (Algebra) the next day and I was having a group discussion down stairs til i actually ignored my phone reminder. StuPid phone reminder and stuPid me... However, even though it's one day later... HaPpY BiRtHdAy yO~!
Long time never talk rubbish with the gang since final started. Hence, KM suggested us to have a "drain-side talk" near MPC (Multi-Purpose Court). Undeniably, girls really can talk. *Blink* From head to toe, South to North, friendship to lovers, mitos to legend... As QH said, everything won't be the same when we come back next sem. My roommates won't be my roommates anymore, QH won't be around to pampered me anymore, SC won't be around to guide me anymore, 'BIG-HEAD Soon' won't be around to tease me anymore... I'm really gonna miss my 1st year life in college very much. A year where i cried the most, laughed the most and being pampered the most. I knew my second year in U will be different. No matter how different it's going to be... I hope i can cope with it. As for QH, i hope she can cope with her new life too. I'm really gonna miss lepak-ing in her room very very much~! *Sob*
Oh ya~! Something very coincident happened this morning. I actually dreamt about SH yesterday nite and then he turned out to misscall me this morning and we started SMS-ing. I told him about the dream that i had then he asked:"Really? What kind of dream was that?" "Nothing lo.. Just you walking around in the campus in a brown T-shirt. The shirt was nice though. Muahaha..~!" Long time never chat with him d. Glad to hear from him also. Wish him all the best in his exam...
As for me, I'll be sitting for my last paper this Sunday. I'll be back to Malacca on the 1st of May-LaBouR DaY. It's a month of MAYDAY~! Hehehe... MAYDAY RoCkS yO~!

p/s: My holiday wish will be earn like mad, spend like mad and play like mad.. Erm.. I wanna slim myself down can ah?

Rainbow

2006-04-17T13:07:00.000-07:00

To A Friend..

在雨中我淋着你的伤痛
雨点滴入水中
看似不同却那么的相同

在风中回忆曾有他的梦
梦飘在寒风中
感觉寒冬被那寒风刺痛

受伤后会有放下的冲动
放不下的是昨夜的梦
你问我哭过后是否会有彩虹
我说彩虹就在你心中

Exam time

2006-04-16T04:24:00.000-07:00

Less than 24 hours to the 1st paper for this semester's final exam.. Just finished 'digesting' all the kuasa-kuasa of the TOP people in the parliament of Malaysia. Damn boring man~! Just like what CH mentioned in her blog, not much diffence from Alex time. Politics just simply not my piece of cake larr..
SoOo.. Just hope that I'll aim at the right answer as i bring my machine gun into the exam hall tomorrow morning. Wish me luck yo~! *Blink*

Graduation

2006-04-13T10:50:00.000-07:00

It's getting towards the end of semester and the atmosphere of separation is really spreading wild in U. It is my time of graduation but i feel the hallowness in me as i walk pass the crowd of final year students. I can't imagine how many times I'll flood UPM when it comes to my time. I'll surely miss my U life although UPM isn't the top U in Malaysia. Repeating the same old piece of my sayings: " It's not the place or event that matters, it's the people gone through together that matters."
Two years more to go.. I've already thinking of which part of UPM that i wanna take photo at. Hehe.. *Blink*

Family day

2006-04-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

My parents and my little sis paid me a visit yesterday. My sis has been complaining that my dad didn't bring her MP3 home for her. At last, the MP3 is now safe in her hand. Glad that she likes what I've chosen for her. *Blink*
Haven't been talking to my parents for quite a long time since the last time i went home. SoOo.. I really couldn't stop telling stories starting from the issue on stay college to the gossip about my weirdo Math tutor. Haha.. Oh ya~! Forgot to mention that my parents actually 'ta bao' my long time 'mengidam' food-'wan tan mee' for me as my brunch. There were EXTRA 'wan tan' and curry chicken. Yummy~! Fingers licking good~!
Back to studies after spending my time with my beloved family. Aiya.. I just simply don't like boring stuff larr.. Felt soOo sleepy when i just started to read Kenegaraan. Sien. Can i just skip this whole exam part and start enjoying my holiday ah? SIEN.SIEN. SIEN..

I WaNnA Go HoMe..............

Lonely

2006-04-09T16:15:00.000-07:00

I made a BIG mistake by not coming to the library yesterday and spent my whole day back in the room doing NOTHING~! Gosh~! I was almost died of suffocation breathing in the air of tension and loneliness cause KM and KY went out for Hi-Dinner Floor where as QH and WL went back home. I was so SO lonely yesterday night.
Thus, I really feel good to be back in the library again today. I'm still alone but not alone anymore with the memories that I have with me. I'm happy for Pelf as I read through her blog cause she made her miracle happened. Although mine didn't come and the right time, I'm still happy there's once it was there.
SoOo.. Today I'm gonna lead my life to the fullest. For ME, MYSELF and I..

2006-04-06T17:11:00.000-07:00

I've been wondering whether it's me that's moody or there really is something bothering me. Thinking and thinking and thinking doesn't really help in answering the questions in me.
I'm drowning in my very own world.
A world that no one can really understand me.
Can someone just save me?
Can you please save me?...
I really hate myself when i'm moody.
Cause you don't have to say a word but i know what you're thinking.
I really hate myself when i'm angry.
Cause what i meant is not what you understand.
I really hate myself for being who i am now...
Cause i care so much til i hurt everyone else.
I really felt like running away although i know that it won't help solving problems anyway...
I really felt like leaving everything behind and back o the position i used to stay...
I really miss the gang that i originate from although i'm truthfully in love with the new gang i have now...
So God please.. Please let me think less and appreciate more
Talk less and listen more
Cry less and smile more
Expect less and give more...
I'm happy with what i have now. Only that i don't know how to make myself happier out of what i already have.

Sadness behind his back

2006-04-05T15:36:00.000-07:00

Only I know
there can be so much sadness behind such a happy man
Only I know
i'm so tiny as being compared
Only I know
i shouldn't be sad
Cause LoVe is all around just that they aren't being said
I pray for his happiness and happiness with him it shall stay..

Graduation

2006-04-03T17:11:00.000-07:00

"As we go on/We remember/All the time we spent together/and as our life changed/become whatever/we will still be/friends forever.."

Time flies with no mercy, I'm now standing at the end of my second semester. Yesterday, our college had this farewell kind of dinner (Hi-Dinner College) for final-year students and it was kind of sad although most of us crazy taking photos here and there. The happiness just simply couldn't cover up the sadness that was growing in the atmosphere. Prehaps I was he only one thinking too much.. but i knew I will really miss those seniors very much. *Sob*
I've a list of people that i would like to thank in this post of mine..

Thanks to BIG head Soon for being such a kind demo, nice senior and great friend all this time. (although he likes to make fun of me and also tease me a lot.) Thanks to Atuk for being such a great leader and senior. To Wai Loo and Qian Hui, thanks for letting me 'lepak' in their room for 2 sems in a row. (Wa jin jin eh ai lu~! *Blink*) To my dearest roommate (Cherng Wen), thanks for being such a nice and lovely roommate. To my buddies, thanks for letting me to be your buddy. To all that have chose to step into my life, i thank you.. Thank you for taking me as your friend. Thank God that brought us together.

SoOo.. let us end this sem with happiness, joy and laughter.

Visual diary

2006-03-30T11:08:00.000-08:00

My 3rd test for Mechanics and Waves is so around the corner (or should i say at the corner?!) but yet I'm so out of the mood of studying it. Don't ask me why.. cause i don't even know why.. Accepting the fact that our gang won't hang out together as a study group as we used to do last semester, I keep one telling myself that it's ok.. Even though i really miss every moment that we spent together during last study week.. Even though i felt sleepy easily studying alone..
I bought myself a visual diary back in Malacca that day. It's a sketch book kind of diary if you don't know how it looks like. I've been writing and drawing a lot recently. My instinct in art is really coming back. Haha.. Thanks to Elin. I'm no longer watching you all outside of the glass wall.. *Blink* So ji-mui-jimui sekalian, by the next time you see me, I might have transformed into a piece of art. Muahaha..
I can actually feel the difference of the atmosphere reading this post of mine. At least it's so much happier than the last few post. I'm happy. And i hope that you're happy too.. As for those sitting for finals soon, add oil yo~! As i've said before, "Let us 'pia' til we graduate with our best honour."..
"Wa jin jin eh ai lu.." *Blink*

2006-03-11T16:15:00.000-08:00

Slipping away..

Something is slipping away
without you realising it
Something is slipping away
because time is what you need
Something is slipping away
I'm slipping away..

I thought for you I shall stay
But too tired i shall say
Yet for you I will pray
Pray for the day you come to me and say
"I'm a better person compared to yesterday.."
Until that day..
Even though I'll be so away
I'll still be happy for you my man

Mechanic and Waves

2006-03-01T05:32:00.000-08:00

Did i mention that i don't really like physics after all? I'm so drown in the world of Mechanic and Waves recently because 2nd test is just around the corner. Wonder why i used to be so in loved with physics back in secondary school.. @-@
BLuURr... Got to get back to study... Gambateh-ING...

We will get there

2006-02-26T14:00:00.000-08:00

We will get there

Remember the days / We set out together with faith
Remember the time / so fine / when we thought that nothing could stand on our way
Then things weren't the same / the life that we knew had to change
We struggle through the darkest storms / We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried / as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world / A world of hope for ever after
Deep in my heart I just know / Right from the start we will grow
Look where we are / we've come so far / There's still a long long way to go
With all of my heart / I will care
I'll play my part / I'll share
With family and friends / together we'll stand
And in the end / hand in hand / We will get there

So now we begin / working together to win
Believe in trust / it must
Be possible to overcome anything
So much to do / There's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love / We will start again anew
So why don't we try / If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world
A world of hope for ever after

By Stefenie Sun

放下

2006-02-25T08:09:00.000-08:00

Letting Go...

委屈其实只是放下的动力
奇迹是我终于还是放弃
没有选择的余地
就这样陷在不属于我的爱情沼泽里

回忆让我那么的放不下你
心情那么的乱而有序
缺乏勇气的自己
何时才能走出坎坷不平的心情旅行

拼命回忆从相遇的那天起
用力呼吸克制自己的情绪
鼓起勇气放下一切坏心情
歇斯底里释放心底的委屈

期待潮落后的潮起
期待重生后的自己
期待放下后的美丽

然后我还是会活的好好地
因为这只是个放下的过渡期

Patient

2006-02-24T14:08:00.000-08:00

CH sent me this message that day :" I dono if our way of speaking seems too extreme or just that their face is really thin, i kinda offend ppl easily with the way i speak.. I miss u guys so much! 9:57am 22/2/06"
Being more than 7 hours distance away, I helplessly did nothing to make her feel better. Yet I believe, it's not our way of speaking that is too extreme.. It's just that ppl don't know us enough to accept our way of expressing our feelings. They need time to get used to it where as we need some time to suit ourselves in them. As we get to know more ppl, we shall follow the stream and flow with it. Of course not by leaving out our own personality, but to create a win-win situation. Learn from others as the others learn from us. Time is what we all need..
Talked to PS on the phone yesterday. Everything seems so clear under his guidance. Heart felt so much peaceful after listening to his advice. It's a word from a wise man that woke me up. Patient is what I need to learn. Something that can hardly be found in my dictionary of life. Be patient I shall learn from time to time.. Learn-ING..

2006-02-06T15:28:00.000-08:00

Back in the bird cage and finished my long time unfinished report at last. PheWw~! What a relief.. Found out tht Yi Lou came back from India but I didn't have the chance to pay him a visit because when Eileen told me about the return of my Yi Lou, we're actually on our way back to UPM. *Sob* I miss chit-chatting with Yi Lou le.. Hopefully I'll have the chance to meet him before he went back to India..
Eh ehm.. back in U, most people still stay in their very own perfect shape (except me of course) and some had some fashion make-over. PS dyed his hair RED. It's quite ok for me but then other people do need some time to get used to it.. I thought of dying mine too but not without my mom's permission.. SoOo.. I'm still waiting for her to nod her head. *Blink*
Sat next to Brian again during Algebra class and he shared his story during his vacation in Sabah. He told me tht he went to the tip of Borneo which I never heard of after living there for 4 years. It's a newly developed tourism spot at the tip of the ear of the dog head of Sabah. Yerr.. I also wanna go~! I'm still planning for end of this sem's vacation. First, I'll surely earn some money as my pocket money and then only decide where to go. So far, I'm still thinking whether wanna go Hong Kong or Sabah because I really felt like going to the Disney Land yet felt like going back and visit my friends in Sabah. @-@~*
Aiya.. Useless for me worrying so much larr.. Next 2 tests coming up is Hubungan Etnik and Kenegaraan. *Yawn* These 2 lectures are the most ideal lectures for me to practise my day dreaming skills. Believe it or not, my day dreaming skills are really improving.. =P
That's all for today... Sleepy.. I think I'm gonna (*@*)~zZz..

2006-02-05T00:48:00.000-08:00

Yo~! Can't believe that the only day tht i spent my time at home is a day before i go back the beautiful bird cage which is 2 hours of time distance from my house. Inhaling oxygen from home as much as I can.. because i don't know when will be the next time I'll be home.
Went to Jonker walk 2 days at a row. Yesterday's with friends and today's with family. I'm simply so in love with this place. A place with combination of HOME and tourism. Walking from the start til the end of the road.. Stopping and looking at stuffs from stall to stall.. Such a long time never did that in this historical town d.. especially with ji mui-ji mui sekalian.. It simply feels GoOd yo~! *Blink*
Bought a pair of earings, some souvenirs for Brian and his gf (cause he has been a really great friend and teacher since this whole new sem started.. thanks yo~!) , some girly stuff and a b'day present for YL. Can I not give the present to YL? Cause I kinda like it very much myself. =P
Chu bought herself a really fancy wrist band and a valentine's present for her bf (it's a really cool necklace with a ring on it). Thought of buying something for valentine too... PY bought the same wrist band same as Chu's too but with different colours. I guess girls really can shop huh? Hehe.. I've been a heavy shopper recently. So broke~! =(After buying whatever we wanted to buy, 3 of us sat in on the staircase of the stage and started our GirL's TaLk. Long time never talk to PY this d since she started working at Lion City. It makes me feel older and older everytime we do this. Sitting down talking about life and all that.. Sometimes, I really think that it's better to lead a simple life rather than thinking and thinking more and more of it.. I hope that PY will reach what she aim for and Chu will live happily ever after with her Adam kia.. I selfishly wish that people all around me will be happy because with that, I might feel the happiness as well.. =)Chu said that I'm getting more and more quite. I feel that way too.. I'm really getting old i guess. SoOo.. before I really ran out of energy, I'll enjoy my life to the fullest~! Hehe.. Next event coming up, Lee Hom's concert~! Anyone wanna join me? *Blink*
p/s: It's Andrea's and YL's b'day today~! Happy b'day yo~! --->-@

CNY

2006-01-19T18:00:00.000-08:00

Yo~! CNY is around the corner. Can't wait to go home. CH said that this time all of us must be same same pro because during the last holiday, all of the 'ji mui' didn't really get around and hang out together lorr... SoOo.. 'ji mui-ji mui' sekalian, make sure this time same same pro ya~! Hehehe.. =)
Since i don't know when will i be free to post in again, I'd like to wish my Yi Lou, Qian Hui (my cute and cuddly coursemate) and Calvin Sio HaPpY BiRtHdAy in advance~! =) Happy happy 21st b'day yo~!

Buddy

2006-01-13T15:40:00.000-08:00

Haven't been sitting down and talking to PS like we used to since this new sem started and we did some catch up on each others life yesterday night. Good to know that we're still buddy as before. =)
Once CH told me, "Friends are siblings that God forgot to give." A saying that we should always keep in mind. Appreciate is the theory we should apply.
I'm so thankful that I found all of my 'heng dai' and 'ji mui'. No matter which part of the world I found YOU, you've safely landed on a place called my heart...

p/s: It's daddy's b'day tmr. So sorry that i actually won't be around to celebrate his b'day cause i've paid for my long-time fave MAYDAY's concert held on the same day. Paiseh larr... Go back only ganti-balik k? Hehe...
HAPPY B'DAY to daddy and not forgetting to TK, Chen Haw and Eleanor who are celebrating their b'day on the same day as my dad as well... =)

2006-01-08T18:08:00.000-08:00

I had a very tiring day yesterday.
First, it was inter-college road-relay early in the morning. Even though I wasn't one of the participants, i still dug myself out of my lovely bed early in the morning to be a part of the competition since CW, KY, PS, L... were taking part in it.
Supposed to have replacement class for Algebra but i didn't attend it cause by the time i returned from the event, it was already half way of my lecture. By the time i reached there after taking bath, the lecture should be over. So, why waste my energy? *Blink*
At 2 p.m, all of the chemistry students were being FORCED to attend the AGM of the chemistry club. We could only get our results' slip by attending the meeting and that's why most of us went. Q:How was the meeting? A: *Yawn*
The meeting adjoured at 5 p.m. KM and I took KY's car to Mid Valley right after that since KY was going home. I bought some batches to put onto my new bag and then we headed back to college.
I was so tired until i fell asleep when i was reading Hiyawu's [ This City ]. I slept so well until i dreamt nobody.

p/s: It's my bro's b'day today. Happy b'day yo~! =)

Same Old Brand New Me

2005-12-30T06:32:00.000-08:00

Let's take a break from my never ending story in Penang cause CH complained that my story was too long. Hehe..
SoOo.. Let's talk about my whole new sem here in UPM. Still the same whole bunch of people hanging around together, same old kind of food, same old prof that taught us last sem.. Only thing that's different is the feeling of mine itself. I guess I'm really growing up and I'm happy that I am. As what TK has told me, it's how we look at the thing that matters not other people. ( By the way, wish TK all the best in his undertakings. I'm really glad that he actually has the courage to seek and reach for what he dreamt for. Good luck my man~! )
Oh Yeah~! Worth a mention that my kolej actually has it's own cyber cafe already. Cool yo~! Way to go man~! KTDI rocks~! =)
All in all, great new start for my brand new sem and what else can i ask for? A boy friend will do. Hehe.. *Blink*

Penang trip part-1

2005-12-12T22:52:00.000-08:00

24/11/2005 Thursday
PheWw~! At last, I'm free from exam. Despite the fact that I still have 5 more semesters to struggle thru, I chose to enjoy my one-month holiday lying just ahead of me. HOLIDAYS a word that simply bring happiness to everyone even just thinking about it. Happy holidays everyone~!
Even though I'm so excited about my holiday but yet I know I'll miss my college life as well for this one whole month. I'll miss the time where the whole bunch of 'ji mui' stuck in the library for the whole day crazily 'K'ing book and preparing for the finals.. time where I accidentally fell asleep in Qian Hui's room and she kindly let me sleep on her bed where as she slept on the floor. ( MuaCks~! ).. Time where me and my roommate ( Cherng Wen ) calling each other 'roommate' for fun.. I'm glad that I found this bunch of buddies in U. The orientation week was a bitter start but it's because of the bitterness that makes the happiness after that even sweeter.
It has been dream to enter U. Although it turned out to be quite different with what I’ve been imagining, still as I've always said "It's not the place or the event that matters, it's the people who are there with us that really matters." Really can't wait for the whole new semester to start. Gang-gang sekalian, we'll 'piah' til we graduate with our best honour. Inshah Arrah~! *Blink*

25/11/2005 Friday
Going to Penang lo~! I'll be back with more details about the trip. Pray hard that God of Rain has mercy on us. Please don't %(*-*) % too often during my vacation k? Hehe~!
[To be continued]

We reached Penang around 9. First time of me stepping into Penang at night and the scenery was amazing. Penang is just simply a romantic Island to live on I guess. So, I must make sure that my 10 years plan of getting married to Penang shall really go well starting from now on. Hehe~!
L's dad picked us up at the bus station and PS was telling me that how much L and his dad look alike before I got to see L's dad in person which made me even more eager to meet L's dad than before.
After being picked up at the bus station, we were brought to an open-air food court near L's house called SUPERTANKER. The food was ok but one thing that gave me headache was the time where I had to make decision when there were like more than 10 stalls in front of me and all of them were strongly releasing that "yummy" type of signal. Hence, Keh Man and I did a clever decision by letting our 'tourist guide' to make the decision for us. (",) Good choice of food by our tourist guide and food in Penang was just simply fingers licking good~!
After we had our dinner, we headed straight back to L's home. His whole family was watching TV in the living room and made me felt so homely after not been at home for more than a month. We joined them on watching TV after we took our bath. Not forgetting to reveal the eagerness of meeting L's dad before this, L simply inherited his mom's fair complexion and his dad's 'macho-ness'. It needs no DNA test to tell that he's their son. Haha.. But let's not go into details about the homozygous and heterozygous thing here. *Blink*

Late at night, we went for supper somewhere near L's house (since his stomach started complaining) before we dozed off.
It was a good start for the first day of our trip.

26/11/2005 Saturday
Woke up kind of early in the morning cause I couldn't really sleep well last night. Might because of the bed or the environment but certainly not sleepless because of uncomfortable-ness.
After getting used to the life in college and not going back home for more than one month, HOME was really something that had not been appearing in my life for quite some time. This familiar yet strange homely kind of feeling in this house really reminded me of my bed, my yellow duckling and my smiley face back at home. (",) The room was really comfortable especially in the morning because the air was really cooling and refreshing. =)
After everyone was ready, we started our first event of the day with none other than BREAKFAST~! L brought us to a food court next to a wet market. I was impressed by the cleanliness of the market cause I've never been to such a clean WET market. Thumbs up for people in Penang~!
After we had our breakfast, we went shopping at the supermarket just opposite the wet market. Keh Man was kind of panic as most of the sales girls there were speaking in Hokkien and she couldn't really catch what they were saying. Haha~! No worries larr.. 'Keh Man, just simply tell them "Eh, cheng di kah.." will do.' That's what I told her. =P
We bought some daily goods and then we headed to our next destination—hair saloon. None other than our tourist guide wanted to cut his hair. Hence, all of us went along cause I insisted so and I was hoping that we could embarrassed him while he's having his hair cut (since he told us he doesn't look good with hair clips on him during hair cuts). In the end, I didn't really do anything to embarrass him cause the hair dresser doing his hair was kind of cute. *Blink*
Done with the hair, we went back home to take our bath. Then, we went out again and this time we headed to the very famous temple in Penang-Kek Lok Si. (I hope I spelled it right. =P) We went up by feet since L parked his car at the bottom of the hill because we didn't know that we could actually drive up there. Never mind though. Climbing up the stairs helped me burnt up the some of food that I've taken in since I arrived in Penang. A little bit of exercise makes the achievement at the top of the hill a little bit more worth than it seems to be. PheWw~! It was too early to be relieved though. We thought we've already reached the peak but actually we're only climbed up half of the hill. Gosh~! No more stairs climbing for me please. =P Thus, we decided to take a ride on the cable car to the peak. I didn't recall of any cable car the last time I was here but that was like n-years ago. Hehe.. The scenery was beautiful from the top although some of the statue was still under construction. L was so overwhelmed and excited until I started to wonder whether we're the visitors or he was the one first time stepping into Penang. =) Good that everyone enjoyed and PS even bought some souvenirs for his family as we went down the hill. Keh Man and I bought souvenir for KY and QH as well.
Back at the foot of the hill, it was our lunch time. We had a try on the very famous Penang laksa. Yummy~! Time for a little dissert after that - cendol. That was the first time of me being the last one to finish up the whole big bowl of cendol (usually L is the last one to finish up food) because my stomach was so full. However, I still finished it up because it was so tasty especially the big red bean. SoOo irresistible~!
Our next station was Flag Hill, which is a direct translation from Bukit Bendera. Our timing wasn't good enough because the next cable car would only push off one hour from the time we're already there. We decided not to waste any time waiting and thought want to headed straight home. However, we eventually turned out to be at the Prangin Mall because L thought it was too early to go home. We watched a HORROR movie there. Hello~! It's a HORROR movie people~! Everyone close to me would know that I DO NOT watch horror movie other than watching with Sotong (since he's the only one who knows how to turn horror into comedy.) Man~! L was sitting next to me on my right but it was empty seats on my left. Begging L to switch place with me wasn't working out. I was so helpless. *Sob*
After the movie, Keh Man and I did some shopping but we ended up buying nothing. *Sigh* I really like the shorts but I thought it suits Keh Man more yet Keh Man thought the other way round.
It was supposed to be dinner time then but we're still more then half tank full. Thus, our tourist guide decided to bring us the old 'guan zhi jiao'. It was something like Klebang beach in Malacca. Heaven for Malay couples to hang out at but much more developed than Klebang beach of course. There was an open air food court there where people could sit down and 'lim teh'. Personally, I like the rojak very much. =)
As we're walking back to the car, I noticed that there were few children playing tiny little mini kite. It was really cute and I bought one for myself as well. Hehe.. All of them thought that I was so childish. Well.. Okay~! If they want to say so.. =P
Finally, we're back at home. Tired but syok~!

Gathering

2005-12-07T00:21:00.000-08:00

I decided to write something happy today after being down for so long. Hoping that I can chase the devil of sadness away from me. ShUhh.. Him far far away from my life. As far as possible.
I've been struggling whether or not to attend the gathering since the very moment I reached Malacca Sentral. The reason I struggled is because most of my 'ji mui' were telling me that they wouldn't be able to make it. Then I was thinking, what's the point of going to a gathering that I don't think I'll enjoy. The clock was ticking and I was still chatting with somebody else using MSN until ZS called me up and asked me to go along with her. SoOo.. I still showed up at the gathering in the end. To be more accurate, ZS and I were the earliest to arrive. Talking about punctual-ness, I think there really isn’t anything that can change what most people think cause human being are born to be selfish. Most people think it's better to let others to wait for them then waiting for others. *Sigh*
However, the gathering turned out to be quite successful since more and half the people showed up (around 60) and I had a great chatting session from the start until the end of the gathering. Truly found the old happy me during the gathering. I haven't been talking in such a good mood for quite a long time since I enter U. No guessing and no analyzing. Yes means yes and no just simply means no. No twist turning of words. Good to be true to myself again. Happy to be true to myself again.
Most people still stick with their very own style. *Blink* Can you believe that Melvin actually wear Japanese slippers to the gathering? WR was laughing all the way since the very first moment Melvin stepped his feet into Amigo. Candra pierced his ear again. I don't really know what’s the part of our ears called. It's the only tiny little piece of thing that’s covering the hole. Kind of hurt even by looking at it itself. Ouch~! Abang still acted as 'gay' as ever but getting more and more macho d. Ronnie Kok became very much slimmer d. I was saying: " Wah.. Ronnie, you look one smaller than before d lerr.." then he was like: " Where got~! It's supposed to be 3 times smaller size than before larr.." Then everyone was laughing out load. Cool man~! Good improvement on his sense of humour.
HY and SQ are still as pretty as ever. Too bad PS was having exam and couldn't make it. Miss seeing the scene of DO RE MI. *Blink* CY became more girly d. First time seeing her in mini skirt. Pretty pretty CY~! Hehe.. WR kept her hair long d and suits her quite well too. Haven't been talking to her so quite some time. Really miss the time we used to talk in class especially during Chemistry class. Haha~! Talking about Chemistry class, I actually kind of miss Mr. Tay lerr.. Should have asked him to come along.
All in all, the gathering was far more happy ending than I thought it would be. Too bad that CH, Chu, PY and Eileen couldn't make it. Or else the gathering would be more interesting and complete with their presence. Looking forward to next year's gathering and wishing all of them the best until the next time we meet again. =)

2005-12-06T21:17:00.000-08:00

我伤痕累累
我身心疲惫
我无力后悔
我所范下的滔天大罪

我痛彻心扉
我伤心流泪
我无力挽回
我所范下的滔天大罪

Home alone

2005-12-04T08:52:00.000-08:00

At last, I'm back at home. Malacca HOME. I haven't back home for more then one month and when i'm back.. I'm home alone. Does it sound very self-symphatising? I hope it doesn't. I just simply hate loneliness but yet loneliness got me by means when i hated it the most. I tend to think a lot when I'm alone. Think about the past, present and future. By doing this kind of deep thinking by myself easily make me drown in my very own well that i dig day by day.. This is the very moment when i hate growing up but yet i can't do a thing to stop myself from growing up..
Please just ignore me cause it's just another day of me losing myself to loneliness. As i grow, I'll get used to it.

The Return of Guin

2005-11-11T18:40:00.000-08:00

I relly missed out a lot since i chose not to go back to Malacca during my study week. I missed Chu's b'day celebration + ji mui gathering which i only be able to talk to them and hoping that i could actually sniff thru' the phone and smell the satay celup's aroma over the phone. (*~*) HUNGRY~! Really miss satay celup very much! Miss my home, my bed, my ji mui in Malacca, my Yi Lou in India... Looking forward to the 1st Form 6 gathering. Hoping that everyone will come...
Oklarr... time to study again. (^~*) When the going gets tough, the tough gets going~!

'K' book week.

2005-09-16T14:09:00.000-07:00

Currently feeling sleepy and tired. Half way studying my Inorganic Chemistry in the library but I was reading the same line over and over again for the last half hour. Stress ah~! Test 2 will be starting next week and I still have a lot more left to revise. Two weeks after the test will be our final exam and I still have to be involved in the 'Belated' Moon Cake Festival Celebration under my kolej on the 2nd October. Hopefully everything will be prefectly under my control. Hopefully...
And also hope that Yi Lou and Ji Zhang are having great time studying overseas. So sad that i couldn't make it to the airport that day cause i was just about to leave my house when Dai Lou asked me whether i wanna join them to the airport from UPM. *Sob* =(
Time's is running out. Final's a round the corner, Moon Coke Festival Celebration Nite still not very undercontrol, almost reaching assignment dateline, reports... How i wish there's 48 hours a day.

2005-09-01T12:52:00.000-07:00

YO~! I'm now in the dark corner of a CC at Old Flat. The keyboard 'si beh' hard to type man! Stress~! Go back only write about my story counting down during Independent Day larr..

Cold..

2005-08-20T15:34:00.000-07:00

I'm currently stuck with my dad's comp in his office. Listening to JJ's 'A thousand year after' from Chu's blog. Checked my mail box which already covered with spider webs. Updated myself by reading blogs from my gang and my heart sank when i saw the msg from CH thru multiply. Even though i thought all of us are now more adapted to university life after experiencing life in U for one month plus yet it stillcause me prescription from my my doctor everytime someone or something touches that piece of memories in me. I really miss the time that the whole gang spent time together. I miss my home..my mom..my sis..my bed..my F6 life..my everything before entering U especially during stressful moment.
It was an extremely stressful week last whole week. Tests were being held in a row, reports still had to be passed up on time, assignments to be done, meetings... STRESS~! Hence, I called back home to chat with my mom to release tension on last Sunday night. Once my mom picked up the phone, my emotion was no longer undercontrol. Tears ran down my cheeks and i started to burst into tears. My mom was crying as well at the other end of the phone. I kind of regreted calling home and making my mom worrying about me but i couldn't find anyone else to talk to. My roommates couldn't really help cause both of them weren't experiencing the work load and tensity that i was facing. (Both of them are taking courses that're much more relaxing than mine.) I miss my mom. How i wished my mom could be with me that very moment. *Sob*
Gladly, test is over now. The last paper was on Wednesday night. The whole gang went to KC (Kolej Canselor) to lim teh right after sitting for the test. I called my mom and talked to her and not forgetting to 38 with my sis for a while. My sis just finished sitting for her PMR trial as well. I think it should be no problem for my sis to do well in the real exam cause she's really hardworking. Only that she's lack of confidence in herself. My mom always say that both of us should be mixed up and redo again then we'll be the 2 perfect person cause i'm the one who's over confident in everything that i do. Hahaha.. No prob larr Wei.. NO worries! =P
It was a rainny day next day. The rain ruin all of our plans (sing K at Red Box then go for bowling and fater that shopping at Sg. Wang) and hence we only managed to go to Mid Valley for shoppong. I wasn't feeling well and really not in the mood of shopping. Thus, Qian Hui (my coursemate) and I spent most of our time eating and finding place to sit down and rest. The others shopped like mad but Qian Hui and I only managed to buy one Cheetah Polo T. Paiseh larr.. I haven't been sleeping well for the whole week because of the tests that i was facing and shopping was really something very tiring to me at that time. =P I bought pizza for my floormates and roommates as dinner and headed back to kolej around 6 p.m. I desperately need to ZzZzZz.. Even sotong called me also i didn't realise. I only saw his misscall when i woke up the next morning.
Headed straight to my dad's place after class yesterday. Transfered all the photo's from my camera into my laptop and then i went to bed AGAIN. Wah~! Now only i know i really can sleep man~! This might due to virus infection from my roommate cause she sleeps a lot too. Everytime she come back from class, the first thing she'll do is lying on my bed to take a short rest and then she'll slowly shift up to her bed and there she goes...ZzZzZz.. =P
Err... i supposed to write something about the dogathon that being held at Bukit Expo two weeks ago but i now i very lazy d larr.. I'll upload the photos to multiply and you guys can check it out at my multiply k?

Home again.

2005-07-29T03:00:00.000-07:00

Continue from the part i stopped that day. Talking about my popularity of being Penguin, i actually lost my balance twice in front of the bath room in a day. Blue-blacks all over my knees. My senior even popped out from her room to see whether I'm ok. So paiseh man~! And before my knees recovered from the 1st two injuries, i fell down again in front of Faculty Of Environmental when i was trying to avoid and Indian girl walking towards me. Luckily never fall into the drain next to me. If i really did, i really don't know where to put my face larr... Poor knees. After being really painful for someday, my knees are getting better..i guess. However, my senior roommates still insists that i should do something about it and they really did something about it yesterday. I was screaming like mad when they're trying to urut my knees yesterday night. Waliao yeh~! It's reallty really painful you know. Thanks to them though cause it's really getting better. =)
Last Tuesday evening, we went to support our soccer team at K10 (Engineering's Kolej). Our kolej (KTDI) vs K10 of course. It was quite exciting cause the competition was very tough. Both kolejs were doing cheers, screaming and shouting and finally our kolej won by one last minute goal. Hip Hip hurray~! We were being sent back to our kolej right at the door steps due to our victory in the competition. (By the way, did i mention that our kolej is the champion of inter-college sports competition 16 times in a row? That was the 1st thing that they kept on mentioning since the 1st day i stepped my feet into the kolej. Although got a bit thick skin larr, still our spirit is still high.) A few guys taking Engineering course were in the same bus and they were panicing cause the bus wasn't going to way it supposed to. Haha.. I was trying to calm them down before they jump out of the window and gladly they didn't do anything thing stupid. I even had a chat with them and it was quite funny.
Went to support our kolej's male basketball team at the basketball court next to Astaka Seni before attending the Malaccan's Fellowship thing at Astaka Seni with Snow Fish on Wednesday evening. At 1st, i thought the competition was between KOSSAS and KTDI until Snow Fish excitedly shouted that the team in the red shirt was actually from K12 (Snow's fish kolej). Gosh~! What was i thinking to bring my enemy along when i was trying to support my team. Unfortunately, our best player weren't playing at his best condition and we lost to K12. Sien. =( Really shouldn't have asked Snow Fish along larr...
That's all i guess for the story of last whole week. Really have to learn to cut the story short cause i still have reports to do. Sien. Test will be started on the 10th of August. So, wish me luck k? =)

Good to be back again.

2005-07-23T23:28:00.000-07:00

PheWw~! At last I'm back in Malacca and breathing in air in Malacca. Good to be back again.
My first week in U was hell of a nightmare. No pillow, no family and most of all no gang. Sien. Whole new life for me. Even though I've been shifting from place to place since I was in prmary school, still getting used to new environment really was killing me during my first few days in U. I was home sick. So so home sick. =( My phone credits flew like water cause I'd call my gang and family whenever I was free. Thanks to Chin Hong, Snow Fish, Pig oil, Elin, Zi Shan, Sotong and my parents for being there for me when I was struggling hard to fit into life in U.
Loneliness doesn't stay long with me though. Famous of my nick Penguin, almost everyone in my college know me. Muahahaha... People were wondering why i called myself Penguin during the first week but after one week they automatically figured it out themselves and they couldn't agree more. =P
I'm now setting up my own colony in my college. I found some really potential people to join my gang and one of them is Chean Joe from Sg. Petani. So..my gang in Malacca, if there's any chance i'll introduce her to you all k? We'll make the best gang ever on earth.
Talking about how I becoming famous, the story have to be starting from the day where the fello of my college asked me to sing college song. My brain was in resting state when the fello asked me to sing college song cause it was like don't know how many minutes past midnight and it was time for me to hibernate. Hence, in my very blur state i sang my college song and before i really enter the chorus part, my collegemate started singing along with me. It was really touching but i only realised that the other day cause i was to blur to be touched at that moment. Worth a mention that i actually forgot the lyrics cause i was too nervous and blur at the same time. Luckily, my penghulu and penghuluwati were in front of me giving me some hint. PheWw~! *Sweat* The next morning, people were saying that my voice wasn't shakey at all even though my heart was beating madly. I guess my sleepiness covered up my nervousness. =P
Sleepy again. [To be continued]